"I'm THAT complicated, mysterious, yet content with the 'simple' things in life. Don't try to understand me; you won't figure me out. But you're free to like me the way I am." -Marwa Ayad

Anonymous said: The girl you say is nikki nefarious, should be Claire Danes, she ran the website the pics are taken from and was in all the shoots. But they do have an uncanny similarity and I haven't seen her on the site in a while. Maybe she changed her name?


you’re totally right.
I thought it was Nikki at a glance.
My bad.
I removed the post.
(Sybil corrected Me also)

*Claire Adams

Claire Adams is the porn star. Claire Danes is from My So Called Life.

I accidentally made the same mistake, Danes instead of Adams, which makes me lulz.

Also, Claire Adams retired from porn to pursue other goals, just like Dia Zerva. I am lucky to have worked with both prior to us all retiring. Much love to both ladies.



Saw the FSoG trailer. Really not much to comment on besides what I’ve already said about the books, but a few things I noticed:

  • They made Ana rather older-looking in the movie, and Christian younger-looking, than comes across in text. In text she sounds like a fifteen-year-old who…


Look at Fifty Shades Of Grey's knot.

Now look at my knot.

Now back at FSoG.  Now back at me.

This is the knot your knot could look like if you bothered to ask actual BDSM players, or hell, even their YouTube channels, before making a movie supposedly about BDSM.  I’m not a rope top and I did that one-handed.

I’m on a horse.

The thing where they justify abuse by saying “it’s BDSM, of course it’s sick and wrong” is still a bigger problem though.

Claire Adams topping Dia Zerva for WhippedAss.

(Source: jjjkkjjjkk)


The message says it all….


when someone cries because you said something nice to them, they’re someone who you need to protect because they haven’t seen enough kindness in the world.

(via jemamcdougall)

“Half the time I believe that you have to force yourself to be happy; the other half I’m wondering why the hell I should feel anything other than what I’m feeling.”

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